As salaamu alaykum wa Rahmatullahi wa Barakatuh.
Just a quick post to let you know that the Living in Madinah blog is no longer open for comments, questions, or updates. We are keeping the blog open so any information therein can continue to benefit, inshaa Allah, but we won't be answering any emails on the now defunct, madinahnaseeha@gmail.com.
Barak Allahu feekum!
A blog of my realities and desperate striving to please my Creator while being a daughter, wife, mother, friend, and human being on this earth. It's ALL about Jennah (Heaven) and getting through this life with that clear goal in sight.
Wednesday, October 22, 2014
Tuesday, September 30, 2014
Long, Lost, Me
As salaamu alaykum wa Rahmatullahi wa Barakatuh.
It feels so good to be back, al hamdul'Illah! Yes, it has been a long, long time. Yes, it was a long, long summer break. Yes, I learned and grew and went through something that I want to share with you all.
This past summer was busy for me - very busy. Imagine having to get an emergency passport last minute for our baby to travel, going to England for 10 days to see my parents and then flying on to Virginia to stay a couple of days with the family that came out to visit us later on in the summer. Then driving cross country to Missouri, to visit our dear family friends and pick up our truck and some trees they had been nursing for us. A couple of days there and then back on the road heading to New Mexico. Picked up a used stock trailer in Tennessee on the way and arrived in Roy the day before Ramadhaan started. Talk about hectic.
Well it just escalated from there. Getting supplies, fasting, visitors, construction, community, research, visits to key people and places, another visitor, land expansion, and flying back on 20 August only to miss our connecting flight from London to Jeddah and ending up stuck in England for 16 days until we could get another flight. Subhaan Allah. Add to that the fact that the TSA did a "routine check" of our checked baggage and failed to return to the cases about $300 worth of goods as well as breaking some items. It was not a normal check, which we have undergone many other times. It was a hate crime, to which I say, "Alhamdul'Illah!" There is never any loss for the believer! It is all just accrued for a deferred time when it can benefit us the most, bi idhn Illah, ta'ala.
So, what do I have to share with you? Just a couple of observations and a personal experience. The first observation is that there are times when people will try to sabotage your efforts. They may do this out of spite, hate, jealousy, or selfishness...maybe even just ignorance. You may feel like your efforts have been in vain, or that they have ruined something good or praiseworthy that you put your whole soul into. But I remind myself first and you, second, that nobody is more powerful than Allah. Those who do the work of shaytaan have no power in the face of Allah's Will and no power over His faithful believers. So, make dua' and KNOW that la hawla walaa quwwata ila b'Illah!
Also, when Allah sends us things, tests and hardships, remember He has already told us that He doesn't send anything more than we can bear. He clearly tells us in the Qur'aan. So, have yaqeen. Have certainty that whatever He sends you, YOU CAN HANDLE IT! Then handle it WELL. Say, "al hamdul'Illah," then rely on Allah, and seek the best way forward from Him.
When I said long, lost me, it was because through all of this I have been on a sort of spiritual autopilot. A very difficult time because Ramadhaan fell during my hiatus. I felt out of touch, simply functioning every day to get meals prepared, laundry done, and keep everyone cared for. Although my prayers were focused, I felt in a constant state of loss, sort of dead inside, because to really "feel" Ramadhaan, I have to cry. I don't mean tears over any old thing, I mean CRY in desperation to my Creator! I must get to a stage of desperate humility, begging Allah for improvement, rectification, forgiveness, and the ultimate success. I didn't have any chance to really lay my soul bare to Allah and have been biding my time, seeking relief from my unnatural state.
Well, just last week the relief came. We were finally back in Madinah and my daughters were begging me to read the seerah of Rasool Allah, sal Allahu alayhi wa sallam. We reached the part about the Year of Sorrow and that did me in. I cried. My heart broke, as it always does to think of the pain our beloved Prophet, sal Allahu alayhi wa sallam, went through. The numbness dispersed, my heart came to life, and the depth of emotion that my love for Allah evokes, came bursting through. See? Water really does give life to everything! Al hamdul'Illah!
How do you spend your time? Do an assessment of how you please Allah. How do you worship Him every minute of every day? Consider what you do to learn about His Perfect Deen. Consider what you do to teach and call to His Perfect Deen. Consider how your actions are a form of worship. Half of my day is spent teaching and learning Islam with my children. It is the validation and shining light of my morning. Another 1/4 of my day is in educating my children in English, Math, Science & Social Studies...all linked to Islam, through the Qur'aan and the Sunnah. The other 1/4 of my day is spent doing laundry, managing the household, and preparing healthy and delicious meals for the family, which are eaten together. It is yet another form of worship, as I fulfill the duties that Allah has entrusted me with in regards to them. It is a hectic schedule that I follow...but at least at the end of each day, I know that everything has taken place with the intention of pleasing Allah. Even through my harshest self-criticism and shortcomings, it is a system for success...with no time left to waste or mismanage to my detriment inshaa Allah. Al hamdul'Illahi Rabb il aal ameen!
It feels so good to be back, al hamdul'Illah! Yes, it has been a long, long time. Yes, it was a long, long summer break. Yes, I learned and grew and went through something that I want to share with you all.
This past summer was busy for me - very busy. Imagine having to get an emergency passport last minute for our baby to travel, going to England for 10 days to see my parents and then flying on to Virginia to stay a couple of days with the family that came out to visit us later on in the summer. Then driving cross country to Missouri, to visit our dear family friends and pick up our truck and some trees they had been nursing for us. A couple of days there and then back on the road heading to New Mexico. Picked up a used stock trailer in Tennessee on the way and arrived in Roy the day before Ramadhaan started. Talk about hectic.
Well it just escalated from there. Getting supplies, fasting, visitors, construction, community, research, visits to key people and places, another visitor, land expansion, and flying back on 20 August only to miss our connecting flight from London to Jeddah and ending up stuck in England for 16 days until we could get another flight. Subhaan Allah. Add to that the fact that the TSA did a "routine check" of our checked baggage and failed to return to the cases about $300 worth of goods as well as breaking some items. It was not a normal check, which we have undergone many other times. It was a hate crime, to which I say, "Alhamdul'Illah!" There is never any loss for the believer! It is all just accrued for a deferred time when it can benefit us the most, bi idhn Illah, ta'ala.
So, what do I have to share with you? Just a couple of observations and a personal experience. The first observation is that there are times when people will try to sabotage your efforts. They may do this out of spite, hate, jealousy, or selfishness...maybe even just ignorance. You may feel like your efforts have been in vain, or that they have ruined something good or praiseworthy that you put your whole soul into. But I remind myself first and you, second, that nobody is more powerful than Allah. Those who do the work of shaytaan have no power in the face of Allah's Will and no power over His faithful believers. So, make dua' and KNOW that la hawla walaa quwwata ila b'Illah!
Also, when Allah sends us things, tests and hardships, remember He has already told us that He doesn't send anything more than we can bear. He clearly tells us in the Qur'aan. So, have yaqeen. Have certainty that whatever He sends you, YOU CAN HANDLE IT! Then handle it WELL. Say, "al hamdul'Illah," then rely on Allah, and seek the best way forward from Him.
When I said long, lost me, it was because through all of this I have been on a sort of spiritual autopilot. A very difficult time because Ramadhaan fell during my hiatus. I felt out of touch, simply functioning every day to get meals prepared, laundry done, and keep everyone cared for. Although my prayers were focused, I felt in a constant state of loss, sort of dead inside, because to really "feel" Ramadhaan, I have to cry. I don't mean tears over any old thing, I mean CRY in desperation to my Creator! I must get to a stage of desperate humility, begging Allah for improvement, rectification, forgiveness, and the ultimate success. I didn't have any chance to really lay my soul bare to Allah and have been biding my time, seeking relief from my unnatural state.
Well, just last week the relief came. We were finally back in Madinah and my daughters were begging me to read the seerah of Rasool Allah, sal Allahu alayhi wa sallam. We reached the part about the Year of Sorrow and that did me in. I cried. My heart broke, as it always does to think of the pain our beloved Prophet, sal Allahu alayhi wa sallam, went through. The numbness dispersed, my heart came to life, and the depth of emotion that my love for Allah evokes, came bursting through. See? Water really does give life to everything! Al hamdul'Illah!
How do you spend your time? Do an assessment of how you please Allah. How do you worship Him every minute of every day? Consider what you do to learn about His Perfect Deen. Consider what you do to teach and call to His Perfect Deen. Consider how your actions are a form of worship. Half of my day is spent teaching and learning Islam with my children. It is the validation and shining light of my morning. Another 1/4 of my day is in educating my children in English, Math, Science & Social Studies...all linked to Islam, through the Qur'aan and the Sunnah. The other 1/4 of my day is spent doing laundry, managing the household, and preparing healthy and delicious meals for the family, which are eaten together. It is yet another form of worship, as I fulfill the duties that Allah has entrusted me with in regards to them. It is a hectic schedule that I follow...but at least at the end of each day, I know that everything has taken place with the intention of pleasing Allah. Even through my harshest self-criticism and shortcomings, it is a system for success...with no time left to waste or mismanage to my detriment inshaa Allah. Al hamdul'Illahi Rabb il aal ameen!
Friday, May 23, 2014
Ramadhaan Notice
BIsm Illah wa assalaamu alaykum wa Rahmatullahi wa Barakatuh.
I have previously posted questions for each day's juz of Qur'aan during Ramadhaan. I didn't, however, find time to post answers to them all. Al hamdul'Illah for that, as Allah has saved both you readers and me. We have been using the Sahih International English translation of the Qur'aan for our children this past few years, due to it's ease of reading. However, my husband's friend and colleague is just embarking on a PhD dissertation on the mistakes in that translation of the Qur'aan...maashaa Allah. It was done by an American revert sister, who made a very good attempt but missed some key grammatical points that change the meanings This is a good reminder for us all that just because something is published in Jeddah, Saudi Arabia and has been checked by certain institutions, doesn't mean it is completely correct or free of mistakes. May Allah guide and protect us all - ameen!
As for the questions I posted, most certainly you can use the questions and find the answers in The Noble Qur'an by Hilali-Khan, inshaa Allah. However, I will not post the answers from the Sahih International translation. I will edit the posts, replacing the reference to the most unanimously approved Hilali-Khan translation, inshaa Allah.
As for the Ramadhaan program this year, we will be at our farm, Healing Earth, bi idhn Illah ta'ala. We should have another family with us for much of the summer, so al hamdul'Illah this will be our first year of including others in our lessons.
As many of you are aware, Ramadhaan is a very intense month for us, where we focus the majority of our time on ibaadah in its different forms. This year we will be covering the following: bi idhn Illah, ta'ala.
Barak Allahu feekum!
I have previously posted questions for each day's juz of Qur'aan during Ramadhaan. I didn't, however, find time to post answers to them all. Al hamdul'Illah for that, as Allah has saved both you readers and me. We have been using the Sahih International English translation of the Qur'aan for our children this past few years, due to it's ease of reading. However, my husband's friend and colleague is just embarking on a PhD dissertation on the mistakes in that translation of the Qur'aan...maashaa Allah. It was done by an American revert sister, who made a very good attempt but missed some key grammatical points that change the meanings This is a good reminder for us all that just because something is published in Jeddah, Saudi Arabia and has been checked by certain institutions, doesn't mean it is completely correct or free of mistakes. May Allah guide and protect us all - ameen!
As for the questions I posted, most certainly you can use the questions and find the answers in The Noble Qur'an by Hilali-Khan, inshaa Allah. However, I will not post the answers from the Sahih International translation. I will edit the posts, replacing the reference to the most unanimously approved Hilali-Khan translation, inshaa Allah.
As for the Ramadhaan program this year, we will be at our farm, Healing Earth, bi idhn Illah ta'ala. We should have another family with us for much of the summer, so al hamdul'Illah this will be our first year of including others in our lessons.
As many of you are aware, Ramadhaan is a very intense month for us, where we focus the majority of our time on ibaadah in its different forms. This year we will be covering the following: bi idhn Illah, ta'ala.
- Reading the Qur'aan tranlation in English - one juz per day (for each individually) with a few questions to be answered on the daily juz.
- Reading the Qur'aan in Arabic - one juz per day (for those who can do so) and for the younger members of the family then a goal such as reading Surat-ul-Baqarah and the last two or three ajzaa.
- Lessons read each day from Shk Uthaymeen's Daily Sittings for Ramadhaan.
- Lessons read each day from Ramadhaan 2011 Bitesize Articles
- Fasting from Alif to Ya for the younger children
- Tahajjud/Qiyaam ul Layl
Barak Allahu feekum!
Monday, March 10, 2014
Your Day in a Nutshell
Bism Illah wa assalaam wa Rahmatullahi wa Barakatuh.
Your day is entirely in your control. It is all in how you act, think about things, and understand them.
There are two things that can ruin your day: your ignorance or underestimation of Allah, subhaana wa ta'ala and your sins (which includes any disobedience to Allah or doing things He dislikes).
What about if someone is unpleasant to you, with no wrongdoing or provocation on your part? Can't that ruin your day? Not if you know that Allah is Al-Hakeem (The All-Wise), As-Samee' (The All-Hearing), Al-Baseer (The All-Seeing), Al-Haseeb (The Reckoner), Al-Hakam (The Judge), and Al-Adl (The Just). In such a case, the one who harmed you has given you a gift; either they have given you some of their good deeds or taken some of your sins - a perfectly good deal. Sit calm and say alhamdul'Illah.
What about if you fall sick, are hurt, or suffer some difficult test? Can't that ruin your day? Not if you know that Allah is Al-Wudood (The Loving), Al Hafeedth (The Guardian), Al-Wakeel (The Disposer of Affairs), Al-Qabid (The Taker) and Al-Baasit (The Extender). In such a case, you know that Allah loves you and is reminding you to return to Him in repentance and prayer. He is expiating your sins, elevating your ranks in Jennah, and guiding you call on Him, alone, for help.
What about if your children behave as though they never learned manners, respect, or morals? Can't that ruin your day? Not if you know that Allah is As-Salaam (The Peace), Al-Qawiyy (The Strong), Al-Mateen (The Powerful), Al-Jabbaar (The Compeller), Al-Musawwir (The Shaper), Al-Mujeeb (The Answerer), Al-Haadi (The Director), Ar-Rasheed (The Guide). Throw your hands up in du'a and keep on doing what your doing to guide them to righteousness. Leave the rest to Allah's Perfect Plan.
What if you are feeling unappreciated? Can't that ruin your day? Not if you know that Allah is Ash-Shaakir (The Recognizer and Rewarder of good) and Ash-Shakoor (The Appreciative). and Al-Kaafi (The Sufficient). Why worry when the only One Who can recompense and reward is appreciating you?
But what about if you commit a major sin? Can't that ruin your day? Yes, it can, if you don't repent for it with sincerity and heartfelt regret. Even with a complete and true repentance it can cast a shadow on your day. However, for the true believer the answer is still no, because you know that Allah is At-Tawwaab (The Oft-Returning), Al-Afuww (The Pardoning), Al-Ghafoor (The Forgiving), Al-Ghaffaar (The All-Forgiving), and Ar-Raheem (The All-Merciful). He created us to err and turn to Him in repentance, thereby learning a lesson and not wanting to commit that sin again. Crying to Allah in sorrow, regret, and repentance is an excellent thing. It confirms that you have eemaan and taqwa - hardly something to ruin your day. More like something to give you hope and something to build on, maashaa Allah.
So, I say to you, if you have correct understanding of Allah, your Creator, and true taqwa and eemaan, then nothing and nobody can ruin your day - not ever.
Resources: The Explanation of The Beautiful and Perfect Names of Allah (subhaana wa ta'ala) by Abdur-Rahman bin Nasir as-Sadi (raheemahUllaah)
"My day is ruined!"
Ever hear someone say that, or say it yourself?
No.Your day isn't ruined. You ruined your day.
Your day is entirely in your control. It is all in how you act, think about things, and understand them.
There are two things that can ruin your day: your ignorance or underestimation of Allah, subhaana wa ta'ala and your sins (which includes any disobedience to Allah or doing things He dislikes).
What about if someone is unpleasant to you, with no wrongdoing or provocation on your part? Can't that ruin your day? Not if you know that Allah is Al-Hakeem (The All-Wise), As-Samee' (The All-Hearing), Al-Baseer (The All-Seeing), Al-Haseeb (The Reckoner), Al-Hakam (The Judge), and Al-Adl (The Just). In such a case, the one who harmed you has given you a gift; either they have given you some of their good deeds or taken some of your sins - a perfectly good deal. Sit calm and say alhamdul'Illah.
What about if you fall sick, are hurt, or suffer some difficult test? Can't that ruin your day? Not if you know that Allah is Al-Wudood (The Loving), Al Hafeedth (The Guardian), Al-Wakeel (The Disposer of Affairs), Al-Qabid (The Taker) and Al-Baasit (The Extender). In such a case, you know that Allah loves you and is reminding you to return to Him in repentance and prayer. He is expiating your sins, elevating your ranks in Jennah, and guiding you call on Him, alone, for help.
What about if your children behave as though they never learned manners, respect, or morals? Can't that ruin your day? Not if you know that Allah is As-Salaam (The Peace), Al-Qawiyy (The Strong), Al-Mateen (The Powerful), Al-Jabbaar (The Compeller), Al-Musawwir (The Shaper), Al-Mujeeb (The Answerer), Al-Haadi (The Director), Ar-Rasheed (The Guide). Throw your hands up in du'a and keep on doing what your doing to guide them to righteousness. Leave the rest to Allah's Perfect Plan.
What if you are feeling unappreciated? Can't that ruin your day? Not if you know that Allah is Ash-Shaakir (The Recognizer and Rewarder of good) and Ash-Shakoor (The Appreciative). and Al-Kaafi (The Sufficient). Why worry when the only One Who can recompense and reward is appreciating you?
But what about if you commit a major sin? Can't that ruin your day? Yes, it can, if you don't repent for it with sincerity and heartfelt regret. Even with a complete and true repentance it can cast a shadow on your day. However, for the true believer the answer is still no, because you know that Allah is At-Tawwaab (The Oft-Returning), Al-Afuww (The Pardoning), Al-Ghafoor (The Forgiving), Al-Ghaffaar (The All-Forgiving), and Ar-Raheem (The All-Merciful). He created us to err and turn to Him in repentance, thereby learning a lesson and not wanting to commit that sin again. Crying to Allah in sorrow, regret, and repentance is an excellent thing. It confirms that you have eemaan and taqwa - hardly something to ruin your day. More like something to give you hope and something to build on, maashaa Allah.
So, I say to you, if you have correct understanding of Allah, your Creator, and true taqwa and eemaan, then nothing and nobody can ruin your day - not ever.
Resources: The Explanation of The Beautiful and Perfect Names of Allah (subhaana wa ta'ala) by Abdur-Rahman bin Nasir as-Sadi (raheemahUllaah)
Wednesday, February 19, 2014
Sorry, I'm not a Poet
Freedom
How I envy the prisoner
Living by rules
Forced to comply
No opportunity for the fallible mind
Or foolish thoughts to govern actions
Weaknesses troubleshot
Taken into account and included in The Plan.
How I pity the free man
Left to his own devices
His whims and desires fighting on the front line
Against practicality, morality, and reason.
Surrounded by rules to pick and choose as he likes
Weaknesses laid bare, open sores to fester and spread
Rotting from the outside in
We have been given free will
But it is the truly gifted of us
Who realize that to be free is to live in a prison
Within the golden bars of compliance
And to be safe is to be a prison
Locking submission firmly inside us.
How I envy the prisoner
Living by rules
Forced to comply
No opportunity for the fallible mind
Or foolish thoughts to govern actions
Weaknesses troubleshot
Taken into account and included in The Plan.
How I pity the free man
Left to his own devices
His whims and desires fighting on the front line
Against practicality, morality, and reason.
Surrounded by rules to pick and choose as he likes
Weaknesses laid bare, open sores to fester and spread
Rotting from the outside in
We have been given free will
But it is the truly gifted of us
Who realize that to be free is to live in a prison
Within the golden bars of compliance
And to be safe is to be a prison
Locking submission firmly inside us.
Just thinking...
that love born from desire is like a puddle - shallow and quick to evaporate in the heat of passion.
But love born from love of Allah and all He Loves, is like the ocean - fathomless. It gets deeper and deeper as our love of Allah grows, and fills the heart to near bursting. Al hamdul'Illahi Rabb il aal ameen!
But love born from love of Allah and all He Loves, is like the ocean - fathomless. It gets deeper and deeper as our love of Allah grows, and fills the heart to near bursting. Al hamdul'Illahi Rabb il aal ameen!
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