Friday, March 11, 2011

White Heart

Bism Illah wa as salaamu alaykum wa Rahmat Allah wa Barakatuh.

Many years ago, while I was living in Bahrain, I had some Zamzam water. I saved it so that I could drink a little each day to break my fasts. Zamzam is for whatever you want or need it to be, so I would sit and make dua' over it to this effect.

"Oh Allah, give me the reward as if I were doing an Umrah and drinking this Zamzam at the well in Masjid al Haram. Oh Allah, wash away my sins, bad feeling, and any rust on my heart. As I drink, fill me with emaan, taqwa, sabr, sakina, wisdom, understanding and love for You, your Book, and your Messenger. Oh Allah, wash my heart clean and white. Seal my heart with this Zamzam water so that it stays clean and white, without blemish, until the day I meet You."

This dua' has changed slightly, as I now live in Madinah and have done several Umrahs, but the rest remains the same. One day, while I was working last year at Al-Fus-Ha Girls School, there was a presentation by some visiting deaf and dumb students in the theater/auditorium. I was seated and there were some balloons floating around for decoration. I left my seat to attend to something and when I returned, there was a white, heart shaped balloon right under my chair. I took the balloon and cried because there are no coincidences. At that moment, I was sure that Allah had heard my pleas and was giving me a sign of hope. The balloon has long since lost its air, but it is still a perfect heart shape.

To drag out the story, when we first went to Masjid al Haram after arriving here, I told my daughters to say the dua' for a white heart. Just a few weeks ago, my 4 year old was walking around our apartment and said, "I have a white heart." I was a bit surprised by her out-of-the-blue statement, so I asked her how she knew. She said, "I said that dua' over my Zamzam, Mummy. Allah has made my heart white until the day I meet him." Now that is absolute faith, mashaa'Allah.

Why am I typing all this to you? Because my daughter recently pulled the white heart balloon out of the box I keep it in and it reminded me. Also, because I want to remind you all that ALLAH can do ANYTHING. Just ask Him, beg Him, not just for the present situation, not just for Jennah al Firdaus, for EVERYTHING good and important. If He sends you tests, then know they are a means to attain what you have asked for...and have TOTAL FAITH in HIM.

Okay, I'm going to get my hankie now.


  1. Assalamu Aleykum dear sister,

    In swear this post brought tears to my eyes.You're so right MASHALLAH.We often search for a million solutions when all we have to do is put our forehead on the ground and humbly ask and beg our Creator.

    JazakALLAH Khair for this beautiful post.

    Lot of love

  2. Wa alaykum as salaam wa Rahmat Allah wa Barakatuh Um Zararya,

    I cried all the while I typed this post, mashaa'Allah. I have no idea why we keep resorting to our own minds when the only power lies with Allah. It really IS that simple.

    Wa iyaaki my dear sister. Love and big hugs for you, too!

  3. your post inspired me to ask Allah for what I want.

  4. Dear Sarah, May your dua' be answered and your needs met by our most beloved and Perfect Provider - ameen.

  5. Masha Allah. I really loved that post, and the beautiful Duaa!

  6. Asalaam alaikum,

    My dear sister! You really are an INSPIRATION, mashaAllah. May Allah gather us all together to meet in His shade, for I love you for the sake of Allah. I love to read your personal experiences, family life as we can all benefit from the reminders inshaAllah. Love Umm Tareq in Algeria

  7. assalam u alaikum
    lovely post once again mashallah. you'r an inspiration. wish we could meet in person. aside from your post, how do you say your name? is it MY or MAY? hope you dont mind.

  8. Asalamualiakum sister Mai, Jazakallah for sharing this story. Truly Allah is all powerful over everything! What a beautiful reminder. May Allah answer all our duas, Ameen

  9. as salaamu 'alaikum wa Rahmatullahi wa Barakatuh my beloved Mai, may Allah bless you with good in this dunya and akhirah. Barakallahu feeki this post has renewed me in my zeal for du'a. I am completely inspired xxx

  10. Wa alaykum as salaam wa Rahmat Allah wa Barakatuh to you all, my dear sisters.

    Ameen to all your dua' and barak Allahu feekunna! Bi ithn Illah, we will all meet Allah with white hearts, and by His Mercy sit on those jeweled thrones, basking in His Shade, bathed in the ultimate pleasure of His countenance - ameen!

    Umm Tareq, I'm so happy to know you are back in Algeria. May Allah bless and keep your family safe under His guidance and love - ameen.

    Um Bilal, my name is Arabic (meem ya) which is pronounced "mayee" with more emphasis on the ya sound than the English May.

    Subhaan Allah, we are scattered all over the world, but our hearts are so close.

  11. Assalaumu Alayki Wa Rahmatullahi Wa barakatuh,

    Allahuma Barik!! that made me cry...subhanALLAH I honestly have more hope, my husband and i are trying to get out of the west for the second time. Reading you and your husbands blog made me realise that i need to have alot more sabr bi ithnilaahi ta3ala. Alhamdulilah i've come across your blog whilst searching for hijrah info. Ahbabtuki fil Allaah mashaAllaah. Allaah reward you and your family ameen thumma ameen.

    Umm Abdullah

  12. Wa alaykum as salaam wa Rahmat Allah wa Barakatuh Umm Abdullah.

    Barakak Allahu feeki ukhti. May the one for Whom you love me, love you even more - ameen! Believe me, it takes years of sabr to get something good...and a lifetime of sabr to get Jennah, bi ithn Illah ta'ala. May Allah bless us with both - ameen!

  13. salamalaik!

    Mashallah! I wept and it Made my day.

  14. Wa alayk as salaam wa Rahmat Allah wa Barakatuh Hamid.

    May we be under Allah's Shade when there will be no other shade for our tears - ameen.

    Barak Allahu feek.